hai so much of problems la. i think until going crazy i wan die i wan end my life . i dun wan such life . PLSSSSSSSSSSS dun torture me liao. i really cant take it . my dad just told me that he cant tahan keep seeing him like everytime at home never wan call his mum liao. i know if my dad's really call. he cfm will blame me or what de. i really dunno what to do . nobody's know my feeling . i really down . going crazy liao fcuking hell . who can understand me ? i wan to end my life but i dun wan to abandon janelle and my family . i love him i want him. but i dun wan we two end up like this . i really want end my life cus i have brought my family upset abt my own matters. i really not a good daughter keep make them worrying for me . i know if i really end my life my family will be very sad. i dun wan them sad but i really dunno what to do . i really so crazy . hais . you all knows my feeling. when i feeling down i cant talk to anyone but i can blog . wanted to call bheekim but i scared i fan dao her. so i never. i'm stress . hais .