darling huihui seriously i have been missing all the time . thinking how foolish we were in the past all the craps with you is all in my memories now . i just cant forget it i missing you muacks.

nows aday quite closed with my lingling hahas. talk to her on fone quite long . say abt our past and heared me out abt my problem. she so good ya . hais time if can flies back it will so perfect or could i say can choose how to be how it will super perfect . monday going to book my basic with ling hahas . sianz la . stay at home dunno what to do only make me more crazy and getting depression more worst . hais . my husband keep telling me not to anyhow think but how ? it's hard if can i will do it . but i cant i reaally feel upset inside anyone's knows? knows how i feel for him ? i bet no ones knows . i so xinku ya hais . who can helped me out?

i just love my hubby so much . i agree maybe i really have depression . i can out of sudden so good out of suddened attitude like a fcuking crazy woman . i only knows nows aday i keep anyhow think of my hubby working what he doing he got flirt anot then i started attitude i really dunno why . but i gave you attitude it really hurts after i msg you or call you i really heart pain . is it really that what my uncle says is real ? i got depression ? maybe yes maybe not i ownself also dunno . if really continues like this i will lose my hubby i knew that . he told me before i must change my attitude if not i know i will going to lose him but how ? i really siao want sometimes treat him so good sometimes so bad i really dun want like this . i dun wan lose him cause i love him really too deep in the ocean . how am i going to do ? he knows that i'm lazy to buy food for myself to eat i can whole day never eat till nite or even dont eat then end up gastric he so worry and i so stubbon he after work still have to buy dinner . hais why i cant think for him he already so tired i still never spare a thought for him . hais laogong i'm so sorry i'm a useless wife and mummy i'm really sorry . i love you two just so deep . that i cant express . muacks laogong ty so much to tolerate me . i know its hard but i really cant control . does it mean i rally got depression ? hais . i love you laogong

getting more and more sian each day . i gettng on my own life . i wont let you distrupt my life. who you want to contact it dosent matter to me liao . i only can say if days passer by you still dont get to change my love for you will slowly faked away . i'm so sianz of you .

hmm getting more and more bored each days. boring life . hubby working left me and bibi at home . tmr sat yay my mum off at least got someone accompany us hehe . love my laogong so much .

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I MISS YOU MUACKS~

i miss you aunty nancy and darling huihui this yr i lost two kin hais . i miss you both much much everytime heard the same song when i send you both the last journey i miss you two really if times really can rewind that will so much perfect for me . i rgret treating you both unwell i miss you . how are you all doing fine ? hais sianz . so much of sadness this yr . ah ee i miss you so does my mummy . i love you miss the day when i small we went out to eat together bring me to cruise all that . everytime you go abroad you will bring me along with korkor i miss you so much . dunno how to express my feelings to you both . muacks ~ only can say i miss you two muacks ~

sometimes really scared to heared every words from you . cause all is untruth . my life have been miserable, dunno what will happen next and dun even dared to think . is really a scarely things. i'm really very sick of tired of everything i have tried my best to change to the better for you but think back really no point . cause did you ever change for me ? i'm really sianz liao. put so much of trust in you but you just damaged it my beautiful dream had gone far far away never will i get back or happened . you keep making me saying those aweful words coming out of my mouth i dun really like it cause i love you . why everytime must make thing lose in ur hands than regret ? why ? hais . tell me whats going to happened next i really too tired liao . pls .

hais today is huihui's darling birthday and also her last birthday for her . next yr her birthday will falls on the 27 oct hais cruelty that i cant be able to make it today nobody helps to takecare of my girl . darling i'm sorry really sorry and yesterday i have make a horrible dream of you . hais . everytime i had any bad dream i will tell you cause i scared it will happened but now haia nobody to say to . darling you will always be remembered by us . you're our lovely sweet dua chiobu muacks ~ you will be the happiest angel among all ~ and will be the beautiful angel up there . muacks i miss you HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU . I OWNED YOU A BIG PRESENT (: MUACKS HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY !!!!! I LOVE YOU DARLING .

darling tomorrow is ur birthday le .. hais i dont think i can make it to visit you i'm really sorry hope you dont mind nobody help me takecare . sorry i'm really sorry . darling i missing you every seconds keep thinking of you . hope you doing well as i will keep waiting for you to visit me . muacks ~ laogong went to work ... later going bugis with my mum and bibi . getting some stuff for new yr . no time blog have to do housework and takecare of bibi darling . i shall end here le .

two more days to reach darling's birthday . so fast . darling you hao mahs? are you happy rite now ? we missings you sibei much . darling come to my dream i got lots of things left unsaid . Pls .

hais dont get to dreamed of darling . hais i miss her still got 6 more days to get to her 19 birthday but she dont get to enjoys it darling i saving money to buy all the gift for you . i miss you do you miss me ? i just feel like hugging you right now . i love you darling . muacks ~

Happy Birthday to meow meow ! one yrs older liao hahahs. anyway didnt managed to meet u up sorry . but ur present i wont forget de. i love you . hais next birthday is darling huihui liao . really zzz. see if i free i buy cakee for u if i can managed it . darling all this while we have been missing you very much you do tc of urself alrights? i miss you darling girll.

have been editing my blog like crazy . hais sianz . yesterday that chris msg me telling me he found the driver and everything and last msg i replied to him " so what you going to do next after you found that fcuking man ?" and he replied " want his leg? his hand ?" lols . i told xiaowei and my husband and they replied me " he can bo ? dun use mouth say ! " lols . anyway i'm thinking also . if we killed him our huihui also wont alive back . what for we killed him or break his hand , leg and end up going to prison ? if huihui arounds she will say nevermind la darling it's over . why not we just sit back and wait for him to be charges? if he kanna light charges then we will think of way to settle him right ? now you go kill him really bo hua . if really can killed him huihui will alive it's okays with me . but she wont HUIHUI IS GONE LAAA!!!!!!!!! what for must make her leave unhappiness? hais i dun wish to say liao . yes i hate that driver i hate that jeremy those went out with her that valid day is murderer . i wont forgive you all does my darling xiaowei too! all because of you all huihui gones never will be back ! you all wont feel the agony when lose a close sister . and all we can do is to wait the driver to be charges . i will blog again asap .

darling eaten ur breakfast how are you smelly girl i know you haven bath yet hahahas.. miss you dARLING... morning raining heavily wor . how's ur there ? darling why nows day you never come to my dream . i have been waiting for you , but you didnt turn up . darling i miss the times you calling me darling . come my dream and call me kays. i will wait for you . are you busy ? if not come today can ? darling i wanna tell you i love you so fcuking much my darling . loves ~