nows aday quite closed with my lingling hahas. talk to her on fone quite long . say abt our past and heared me out abt my problem. she so good ya . hais time if can flies back it will so perfect or could i say can choose how to be how it will super perfect . monday going to book my basic with ling hahas . sianz la . stay at home dunno what to do only make me more crazy and getting depression more worst . hais . my husband keep telling me not to anyhow think but how ? it's hard if can i will do it . but i cant i reaally feel upset inside anyone's knows? knows how i feel for him ? i bet no ones knows . i so xinku ya hais . who can helped me out?